It was meant to be

Hello. Half past midnight, the sound of cars from a highway somewhere out there. No, I'm not where I normally am. I'm not in my habitat. Currently sitting in a study room, on a couch feeling pretty tired but I'm calm and relaxed. Feeling less angry or depressed than I normally am. I think it's the Soap & Glory, I don't know. So I've been here for hours trying to get paperwork done while I hear mahjong pieces being thrown violently on a wooden table from downstairs. Mahjong seems like a very aggressive yet not very aggressive game. I've tried it once or twice but my mind is far too slow for it. I'm pretty contented in this tiny room. I like it honestly compare to my ever so cluttered bedroom which I don't even sleep in for goodness sake! Well st least it's 'decorated' in a way. Though I wished I hadn't painted my wall purple though it is a fun colour. Hmmm.... what to say what to say... This reminds me I have to text someone, hold on right there... (This is what happens when I'm thinking...)








And so now I have plans at 10am and I'm not even asleep yet. Good greif. (I tend to speak like an old English lady when I'm blogging I don't know why... maybe its just me) So I'm trying to start over during this holiday turn over a new leaf but it doesn't seem to be happening. My thoughts always get the best of me and I get sad all the time especially when I'm looking at people with their oh so perfect lives not having to struggle a day in their lives for anything, and others that just go on with their lives not knowing of my existence in theirs but there are some along the way that brighten up my day (no I never forget them). I'm trying to look on the brighter side of things, trying to let go of the grudges that I hold towards the countless people I've crossed paths with. Some even being the ones who are the closest to me in fact. Well enough about that, I shall talk about my new little obsession!!!! Well not much of an obsession I think of it as a mere phase. Well I went to the movies yesterday (couple seats are amazing! they comfy as heck!) and I watched Wolverine. My mother's friend took me and she picked the movie. This wasn't the normal kind of movie I'd watch considering the fact that I hate movies and the only movies I watch are either chick flicks or romantic comedies. So Wolverine was a first and it was AMAZING! I kinda had got hooked on this character Yukio which was like a spunky sidekick for Wolverine and she was all cool with her red hair and samurai sword. She was just so cool! Like seriously YOU HAVE TO WATCH THE MOVIE! YOU JUST HAVE TO!KDJBFKSJDBFKJDBFKJDBFKJDBKJSDB yes...... Okay I think I'm done for tonight getting sleepy... might just fall asleep here... Night.

Jane. 

Slacking

So, I planned out my week on what I should study and my time and everything and so far today was a bust. Procrastination got the best of me but hey! At least I got to complete a beautiful wall ornament/bunting  which has been used to add a little spice to my once plain and mundane wall. Well I got the template from a wedding website called Ruffled. It has super cool wedding ideas for well, your wedding with loads of DIY stuff and things like that. (I will put the link at the end) Anyways, I think that's all from me today. Will post more when I have more inspiration and will definitely post a step by step tutorial on how I made it! I apologize for the lack of flowery words and sentences as I think I may possibly be having writer's block.

Jane.

Link for the bunting template: http://ruffledblog.com/printable-alphabet-bunting/

PS: Sorry for poor image quality, used my netbook to take the photo and it's not the best. My iPad has been confiscated and I don't have a phone with a cool camera so this will have to do.

"Oh little one, I have done all that you have done or shall do. Thought of all you have thought or shall think. I am all knowing. I am Michelle." ~ Michelle (Bunheads)

Bear with me

Today was definitely a day for thinking, thinking a lot. Hoping, wondering and so forth. Feeling as if I've done someone wrong, feeling as if I've wasted a perfectly good day on non other then blogging on Tumblr. I honestly loathe myself for doing so. It brings me much bitterness that I tell myself several times not to but I always end up, sitting sloppily on my green chair writing, reblogging or editing my blogs template or layout. It annoys me honestly. Look at me! Even as I'm ranting about this I am BLOGGING! I feel utterly displeased and disappointed in myself. I just want to give myself a big gigantic slap in the face hoping that I'll wake up. My life has gotten very low now hasn't it?

Jane.

Awakened

The Sun glaring through the window as I type on my keyboard. A fan turning at moderate speed and the sound of my house helper talking to the lady who house is behind mine. I am honestly not in a good state to make a blog post but what else shall I do? I should be on my way to take a shower or at least completing my mountain of homework or searching for my lost books. But no. I'm here just sitting lazily under a fan writing a blog that is going absolutely no where.

Mouth dry, nose blocked, eyes weary, brain empty. What shall I say, what shall I say. I really have no idea what to write about honestly. My day has been mundane and my life has been the same as well. The only thing that I can think about is the fact that my back is hurting. I hate it. It makes me feel old and useless. It doesn't hurt too bad though the ache comes and goes, it annoys me ever so much.

Jane.

PS: I've two tumblr accounts if you care to check them out one is my personal account: http://janemenn.tumblr.com/ and one for my art: http://janemennsart.tumblr.com/

Abandoned

I apologise for not posting in a while. Holidays have been extremely unproductive and I am literally a potato level 1234567890000000000000. Well it's obvious I haven't been doing much except drawing and being weird. Been very engrossed in the whole Gifboom scene and I've been enjoying drawing people. Other than that, I've been struck by a bolt of sorrow and have been getting shut eye at the wee hours of the morning. This has been happening for the past 5 days. I honestly doubt I'll be able to rise for school next week. So if you're from where I'm from you probably know mid term holidays are coming to a shut down until next year. As I await the next holiday I shall mourn while I lie on top of a mountain of homework which I have yet to complete. I still long ever so much for the day that I will wipe up all displeasure in my being and get up to face a day with genuine optimism. I shall stop here and wave you goodbye as if I were a princess, waving my silk handkerchief in the air as I bid you farewell. May your life be filled with only goodness.

Jane.

Give me a break

So, as many of you know mid terms are over for me and I've skipped two days of school. Being at home however is not the most joyful thing in the world. So, my mother dearest has certain expectations of what she wants me to get done while I'm at home. She wants me to finish my filing, exercise, and do a bunch of other stuff which I cannot remember. I'm not complaining, nor am I saying that she's being unreasonable for telling me to do something. I'm perfectly fine with the whole idea of being productive. Unfortunately, I hate it when my house helper (many of us call kakak, or maid) loves to nag at me. I like to do things in my own time so leave me be. I just get so annoyed whenever she walks into my room and starts saying, "Go do something" "Stop playing with your iPad" "Go do this" "Go do that". I mean who likes being asked to do things. I will do what I want when I want to. Ugh... I sound so dumb right now but honestly I'm just annoyed. So I'm gonna end here before my blog starts becoming a rant page.

Jane.

Heat

Well living at the equator, means that heat will constantly be present wherever you go. This means the residents will never be able to experience the four seasons unless they travel to another country. I long ever so much to touch real snow. Many say it's nothing much, and that it's just frozen rain from the sky but I just want to feel it. I've been to fake snow things that they have at theme parks, to make you feel that you're in a winter wonderland but I was unfortunately prohibited by my over protective parents to touch the snow. I bet they were afraid I'd be dumb and eat it. Though I have experienced winter in countries like China but there's no snow.

Hmmm... The heat is literally killing me. I would love to turn on the air conditioner but wouldn't that worsen the situation that we humans are facing. Think about it. Turning on air conditioners kind of increases global warming right? (At least that's what I think) Anyways, I'm just sitting here under a ceiling fan trying to think of interesting things to talk about. This is a little tough, as school was extremely uninteresting today and I think the heat is giving me a mental block. Well the most exciting thing that has actually occurred today was the fact that I successfully loaded my iPad with 145songs, which I have been wanting to do for ages.

Jane.