Joyeux Noël

So I look extremely festive in this get up and let me tell you this is the first time I've done this. I feeel absolutely vain but I guess I wanted to share one of my 'good outfit days' on my blog. So, i went roaming around with Vanessa and Naomi at a local shopping mall and we were all decked out in Santa hats being our 'fun' youthful selves. We started the day with a meal at McD and proceeded to take pictures in front of the mall's restroom which isn't the most glamorous location in the world but it had plain white walls which were a simple backdrop for random photo-taking. So that was pretty much our day in a nutshell. Oh! And before I end this post I want to wish everyone out there a holly jolly Christmas and a happy new year! Have a blessed Christmas everyone!

Jane.

Outfit: Santa Hat (Vanessa's), Denim Jacket (Seed), Black Tank Top (Peacocks), Dark Red Leather High Waisted Skirt (Cotton On), Black Golden Chained Sling Bag (Cotton On), Slippers (Fitflop)

PS: I wear Fitflop because I have back issues... it kinda helps

All good things come to an end

So I probably don't have the most attractive ankles in the universe but this was taken last night (22/12/2013) marking kakak's last day at work. She was all packed and ready to return to her place of origin. I spent the night at an aunt's house so I could join them bright and early in the morning (4.00am to be exact) to see her off at the airport.It was an extremely emotional time as kakak has been with me since I was 5 years of age. She saw me grow up and has definitely grown to be part of the family. I do hope to see her again one day. The memory of her waving goodbye to me at the airport seems to replay over and over like a never ending gif.

Jane.

An escape from reality

So venturing out of my comfort zone into something rather different from my usual 'being spoilt by the amenities of the city' kinda thing. 4 days and 3 nights in a church camp themed Bold by my youth group was a refreshing experience and it really touched my heart in so many ways that make me wanna laugh and cry at the same time. Well, basically we resided at El Sanctuary home stay throughout the camp and basically we just carried out all camp activities there as well. The talks were extremely helpful as Pastor Tay covered issues like fear and overcoming it. He wasn't your typical wise man speaker, but he used his life experiences to motivate and encourage us in many different ways which was definitely something that kept me awake during his talks. I also thought that the BGR session was an extremely good one, because as Asians we rarely touch on topics relating BGR. I also enjoyed the time I spent with my devotion group and also playing games (especially captain ball although I'm horrible at it). Other than that I also loved the concept of the wooden chalets that we stayed in which were pretty cute. Plus the food was definitely amazing (sometimes a little too spice but it was really good food), I really loved it though sometimes they would serve me portions which were a tiny bit too big but I was encouraged by Maureen to finish my food! We also had 'Theme
Night' which is basically a night where we dress up according to a theme (this year's theme was WILD WILD WEST) and I was dressed up as a cowgirl :) We did some square dancing, built a teepee, did a charade-ish game and did some more dancing, and it was really fun. At the end of camp I had my feels all over the place, declaring several times that I wouldn't want to leave because I loved it so much, waking up every morning looking forward to another day but I guess camp had to come to an end. I managed to give Pastor Tay and Daniel (the guy who served our food and helps run the place) a note each to express my gratitude :) Well while I was having dinner just now I was just thinking of how fun it would be like to just go back to Malacca again and experience camp all over and it almost got me sobbing. Though I have to say that this camp was by far one of the best camps I've ever attended and I would definitely love to go back to El Sanctuary. It makes the sleepless nights of putting together the Camp Manual worth it because camp was truly amazing. At the end of this post I don't want to forget to thank God for giving me the means to go through this camp with full enthusiasm and also gave me a little spiritual guidance along the way.

Jane.

Walking down memory lane

Well basically, I've been obsessing over Lizzie McGuire which led me to dig up clips from The Lizzie McGuire Movie and fall in love with the Lizzie Gordo relationship. It's absolutely sweet and I just feel all gooey and sappy whenever I watch them. I also love feeling the nostalgia from my childhood maybe because I loved how happy I used to be not having to care too much about academics or responsibility or even how I might survive going to college in the future. Nostalgia is one of my most favourite feelings yet it kinda puts you into this realm where you're literally in your own world. Whenever I go back in time to relive the little TV shows or the little moments I loved so much it makes me feel so sad that I'll never be able to do what I did back then yet it makes me feel extremely grateful and happy that I got to experience a childhood free of smartphones and technology where I was happy enough to have a plastic spoon, or even an eraser to play with. 

So far.

So far my holidays have been fine. The month of November is coming to a close which means I'll be turning 16 in two weeks and also that the dreaded year of 2014 is coming round the mountain. Though I hope things will take a turn for the better next year. I hope for new endeavours and hopefully good encounters. I'm well aware that the world/year/month/week won't determine my future. Some what like how many people like to say "2014 please treat me well". I mean 2014 is not gonna treat you well unless you make the effort to treat yourself well. I know it's obvious and people just say it for the heck of it but seriously, the only person that can make a difference in your life is you and God and no one else! The only way you are going to get a pamper treatment from 2014 is if you treat yourself well. To me everyday is the same whether is 2014 or 2020. Life still carries on and the world keeps orbitting the Sun. So enough of that, and more of what's going on in my never not mundane life.

So I've reached a miraculous number of Lizzie McGuire episodes and falling in love with Gordo every single episode, wishing so much that I will meet an exact replica of him one day. (Physically and personality wise) Other then Lizzie McGuire my days are spent decluttering my room and basically social media. Though watching Lizzie McGuire has made me realise that I don't have to give in to peer pressure or care what other people think of me. I mean I've known that all this while and never really gave in to peer pressure that much but I have to admit I give in to the basic image of what the media depicts as the perfect physique or the perfect face. I mean it makes you feel like crap knowing that you'll never get enough money to cut your flaws out of your face or body so you'll look like what the magazines tell you to look like. (I know this sounds super girly girl I want to look like a model but I can't kinda situation but I'm gonna say it anyway) Though Gordo reminds me that it doesn't matter if I like the things I like or if I look a certain way. All that matters is that I'm happy and I'm doing the right thing. So yea, it's also nice to bring myself back to the times where teenagers were less complicated and less caught up in social media.

Jane.

So it goes on

Having a horrible tummy ache and lots to do this holiday but my procrastination level is at a high. I feel like I've lost all sanity. I am honestly very much uninspired to write at the moment but I do not want to abandon this page and make it a ghost town. So, I think it's time I started cleaning my room and getting ready for the year ahead but I'm still not showered and it's already 5.30pm. So I suppose I'll push all that needs to be down till tonight and feel like crap tomorrow due to my lack of sleep. Well, I think today's post will be short as I have to get going on my duties for camp.

Jane.

PS: I really can't wait for youth camp! I really hope for tonnes of fun and hopefully renewed faith.

The holiday

Well, I technically already on 'holiday' so to say because exams are pretty much history and I'm sitting in my room thinking about Adam Lamberg of Lizzie McGuire and wondering what in the world he is doing right now (Yes, I have the weirdest thoughts). Still thinking on how I'm going to plan out my holiday systematically so I can get everything I need to get done in the time span of about 1.5 months. Hmmm... obviously I regret everything that I didn't get done for finals but I have to move on. Life's to short to hold a broken toy you can't fix. (I'm a cliche leave me alone) So, the plan is to make sure that my year ahead is not 'broken' and hopefully improve emotionally, physically and spiritually. Bah.. so much to do but with holidays it seems as if you have an endless amount of time to kill so my procrastination level is infinite at this point. I might also start reading which is a miracle because reading is like a bad pill. It makes me all sour and frustrated because it just makes me go "How in the world do people read these things?" because I can't stand reading something I don't understand like Pride & Prejudice. I tried and got about half way through. I have tonnes of friends who are extreme bookworms and are extremely flowery with their language. Makes me feel like a little lost in conversation whenever the topic of books comes up. I mean seriously, I don't read, how in the world am I gonna make a smart comment on some John Green novel? Maybe the whole reason I wanna start reading is because of peer pressure  but we'll see if I give in to it or not. Though I remember how I used to love reading as a child. It's odd how one can change so much and still be the same. Oddly this blog post is longer than it should be. Au revoir.

Jane.