So I screwed up both my Add Math and Physics papers today for finals and I don't know whether I'll still be in the first class. Well I hate the fact that I'm trying to keep a positive environment for the formation of positive thoughts in my head but clearly everything on the internet especially people who are button doobly doo smart are complaining about how bad they've done. Makes me realise how when I came to Form 4 my student standard just went from bad to worse. It really gives me this whole big picture in my head that I am going to fail my life and I'm gonna be homeless one day. I'm trying very hard to make it better but I don't think I have the energy to do it anymore. I just feel like giving up on everything because I know well enough that I'm never gonna get what I want. I'm never gonna be the smartest or the most interesting person in the world because there's always gonna be someone better than you that you're gonna compare yourself to. So that's my piece of mind right here on the Internet. It just makes me sick to my stomach to think about how much I would love to turn the clock back and would've just stayed a baby forever. It's sad how my blog is turning into my personal rant page rather than a blog. Kay, I'm done.
Jane.
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