Prom this Friday. France Student Exchange Programme isn't happening. SPM in 20 days. I am definitely panicking about the last thing. Though I feel like I'm sitting leisurely in a house that's on fire. I fear the danger of putting my life at risk but I like how the flames benignly brush my skin like a warm hug from a dear friend. Prom is something I'm definitely excited about. I've been waiting for it since last year, and asked my best friend to be my date at the end of December last year. Well, it's in three days now and I must say I'm just filled with a huge amount of excitement and a little bit of sorrow, because it's one of the last events we'll have at school. Kinda makes you realise that high school is done and SPM is the next checkpoint out of this really long and agonising trip. I have to say as much as high school was never the best thing ever, it was nice having people around to live it out with. Makes me think of the future and how we may never keep in contact. Scares me that all these friendships are at risk of ending cos our journey ended. It's not that I don't want the journey to end. I just don't want the friendships to. I feel like I will end up bawling at the end of the night cos I'm just gonna miss everyone so much even though it's not the end of school yet. As for the student exchange thing, we win some, we lose some, so I guess I'm not too bummed about it. At least I'll get to get my driver's license, get internships, go to college, and maybe just focus on studying and my career and all that junk. Feeling like we're growing up to fast and I just wanna revisit the time when I could just suck my toes and no one would ever judge me.
Jane.
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